"Chronic suicidal ideation takes so many forms. It can be fantasizing about passing during sleep, developing a terminal disease, dying in a tragic accident. Or it’s background noise, a staticky station whispering taunts you can almost, but never entirely, tune out." Anna Borges
counseling
On Finding the Right Therapist for You
...if you don't like your therapist, and/or you think your therapist doesn't like you, you are not likely to experience the changes your are hoping for.
It's Not Just You 