"Chronic suicidal ideation takes so many forms. It can be fantasizing about passing during sleep, developing a terminal disease, dying in a tragic accident. Or it’s background noise, a staticky station whispering taunts you can almost, but never entirely, tune out." Anna Borges
Men learn that emotions, and emotional connection are, at best, distractions (unless they are a means to money or sex) and, at worse, anathema to true masculinity.
We can feel attraction to another person's spouse, we can resent our children for the imposition on our lives, we can find relief at the death of a loved one. None of these feelings make us bad people. They are just feelings.
People come to counseling for all kinds of reasons. There is no wrong reason to talk to a counsellor, here are some issues that counselling can be particularly helpful with.
Start by thinking back to previous years, what was the most enjoyable parts of previous seasons? Make sure that those things are central in your planning, in terms of how much time you spend on these, versus the parts you enjoyed the least.
...if you don't like your therapist, and/or you think your therapist doesn't like you, you are not likely to experience the changes your are hoping for.
We have power to act and and to influence another person's journey with mental illness, but we do not have all the power.
A diagnosis is not an assessment of who you are. It is a description of the symptoms you are experiencing. Some diagnosis have more stigma attached than others and some can help to bring life-changing clarity to an individual, directing them towards needed help.
Medication has its limits. It will not provide a healthy environment, social support, the tools to manage difficult situations, or to heal from major crisis or traumatic events and should not be solely relied on for these things.