Understanding the basic styles of attachment is the first step to healing any attachment wounds you may have.
"...the more you fail to experience your life fully, the more you will fear death." ---Irvin Yalom
People come to counseling for all kinds of reasons. There is no wrong reason to talk to a counsellor, here are some issues that counselling can be particularly helpful with.
Start by thinking back to previous years, what was the most enjoyable parts of previous seasons? Make sure that those things are central in your planning, in terms of how much time you spend on these, versus the parts you enjoyed the least.
Continuing to avoid things we know we will need to face means that we are carrying an extra weight, even when we think we are ignoring it.
The question, at this point in history, while working our way out of a time when grief has been so pathologized, might be, how do we know when there is a problem with grief?
"They say they love me, but if they really knew, who I am... what I've done...."
A diagnosis is not an assessment of who you are. It is a description of the symptoms you are experiencing. Some diagnosis have more stigma attached than others and some can help to bring life-changing clarity to an individual, directing them towards needed help.
Difficulties with sleep will occur for most people at some point in their life. There is no way to guarantee that you will never have a sleepless night, but there are some things that might help...